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Friday, November 16, 2007
I thought he loves me but he didn’t. I hoped, wished, and dreamed that he did but I lose. I’ve been questioning myself if I really love him cos he became part of my daily life. I thought it is possible but it isn’t.
Love is very playful. I love him yet I don’t feel any affection from him towards me. Perhaps he doesn’t have any so there is really nothing to show.
Yeah, stupid of me, though he’s showing me he doesn’t love me, I still continue in loving him. What can I do? Stupid love.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
I never expected that a friend would asked me how much, I think, a simple wedding will cost. In my group, only one knotted early and was my bestfriend. People are asking me when I will get married. But how can I say my side?
FRIEND: kablo ka pila mag minyo?
FRIEND: hehee
ME: nag
ME: ka early oi
FRIEND: AKO PA lang
FRIEND: swempre
FRIEND: early jud mag plan
ME: i mean ba... 25 pa man ta
FRIEND: 1 year na baya mi
ME: dapat mga 30 years old
FRIEND: yup 25 n ta
FRIEND: ngeks tiguwang na kaayo ang 30
FRIEND: di na ma enjoy ang baby ana
ME: ahhhhhh! grabe baby naman giistoryahan
ME: kuyawa oI!
FRIEND: hehe
FRIEND: mao man sulti pud sa kuya nako
FRIEND: kay kung 30 n ta
FRIEND: tiguwang na kaayo ta ana
ME: 30 pa gani ko gusto magminyo
ME: ngeeeeeeeee
FRIEND: ehehhe
FRIEND: ngeks
FRIEND: dugaya ui
ME: kylangan pako maka adto ug abroad or US or
ME: before mag minyo
ME: too early to get married oi
ME: chakas
ME: lisud kaau ang panahon karon
ME: well...
ME: if both of you gusto na then go
ME: when man mo magpakasal?
FRIEND: hehe
FRIEND: plan pa nako
FRIEND: gusto ko next year or next2 year
FRIEND: basta 26 or 27 ko mag minyo
ME: hahahaha
ME: grabe
ME: bata pa imo uyab ana oi
ME: 23 or 24?
FRIEND: tiguwang na na ui
FRIEND: atong mama pila edad nag minyo?
FRIEND: gege
ME: akong mama? 21 ata.. tapos papa nko 19
FRIEND: hehehe
FRIEND: tanawa
FRIEND: bata kaayo
ME: lahi bya ang panahon dati ug karon
FRIEND: same lang man
FRIEND: ang naglahi lang
FRIEND: ang tao
ME: hala! gusto na jud ka magminyo ba
FRIEND: kay sa panahon karon kay greedy kaayo
ME: hehehe
ME: greedy diay nang gusto nmo na ayos na future?
ME: na dli
FRIEND: di man na mao ang pasabot nako
FRIEND: hehehe
ME: hehehe
ME: unsa diay?
FRIEND: buings
FRIEND: di na mano
FRIEND: ang gina mean nako an greedy kay ang mga tao na ang gina atobang puro kwarta
FRIEND: kanang di pa ka ready kay di pa gyud na
FRIEND: hehehe
ME: unsay connection ana sa sayo ug dli sayo magminyo?
FRIEND: wala man
FRIEND: hehehe
FRIEND: kayu nag ana man ka dati na lahi ang panahon dati
FRIEND: hehehe
ME: hala ka oi
ME: kaminyoon na jud ka
ME: kamo?
ME: grabe
FRIEND: ako gusto na ko
FRIEND: hehehe
FRIEND: ikaw?
ME: nag istorya namo sa girl?
FRIEND: n storya na
FRIEND: hehehe
FRIEND: ana sya sa karon di pa sya ready
ME: dli pa lagi ko...bata pa ko oi. I mean, dghan pa jud kaau ko ug
FRIEND: ana ko plan ko mag minyo after 2 years
FRIEND: ana sya dugaya ui
FRIEND: hehehe
FRIEND: pero yes naa ka idea tagpila?
ME: 100k
FRIEND: tanan2x na sya?
FRIEND: bongga na?
ME: in-ana.. kanang so-so na kasal.. dli bongga
ME: in-ana ang gastuson
FRIEND: hehe
FRIEND: kung mag minyo ko yes
FRIEND: muadto ka?
ME: if naa ko invitation
ME: alangan
FRIEND: kung wala?
ME: kon wla, d dli.. it means dli ko invited
FRIEND: heheeh
FRIEND: amaw
FRIEND: kamo pa di man timo malimtan
ME: asus
FRIEND: cguro mas daghan ko babae na mga bisita
FRIEND: heheheh
ME: kaminyuon na jud ka bah
ME: grabe mura kog gigitik
FRIEND: hehehe
FRIEND: cge lang gud
FRIEND: si kitoy gani nag minyo na
ME: ha?
ME: taysa.. minyo na?
ME: as in humana ug kasal?
ME: kanus-a lang?
FRIEND: dugay na ui
FRIEND: wala ka kabalo?
FRIEND: tsk tsk tsk
FRIEND: july yata or june
ME: kabalo naga plan cla
ME: pero wla ko kabalo humana
ME: atik.. niadto ka?
FRIEND: wala man ko invitation
FRIEND: hehehe
FRIEND: wala ko niadto
FRIEND: naa sa frndster nya
FRIEND: naa didto pix nila
ME: atik
ME: tanawon nako karon
ME: ayy unya diay
ME: chakas man ka oi
ME: mga what month ka magminyo kaya puhon?
FRIEND: gusto ko mga august pud
FRIEND: same date kung kanusa ko nya gusogot
ME: oiiiiiiiiii
ME: grabe ha
ME: ngano ka naka decide na mag minyo?
FRIEND: na feel lang nako na gusto na gyud ko
ME: so, ready ka sa tanan na magchange sa imong life?
FRIEND: yup
FRIEND: ready na ko
FRIEND: hehehe
ME: i'm proud of you my FRIEND
ME: best wishes
FRIEND: hehe
FRIEND: wala pa gnai
FRIEND: hehehe
ME: diha na na padulong oi
Why Am I Afraid of Marriage? My answer, I’m not ready yet.
not ready yet.
Labels: commitment, love, marriage, relationship
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Labels: learn to say NO, life, love, relationship
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
She is a fighter – her friends always told her. She is strong – no doubt about that. She is smart – exemption every finals is ordinary. She is independent. She was happy but things turned upside down when she met him.
A note is always attached to her computer monitor – yelling “STOP IT!” to make her stop. She’s in love – yes, she is – to a person she can never have. If love is the topic, her friends always call unto her – cos she’s the only person in the group who can give you the worst and realistic advice a brokenhearted wanted. Her friends would always think – she’s the most practical girl in the circle cos she is.
It was a lovely day in 2005 when she quoted someone in a forum. She loves internet – online conferencing, emailing, private messaging, forums, online discussion – but she despise chatting. The guy’s name is Nickel and her username is Dime. Nickel was lonely that time – he badly needs a person to talk to and by chances – met Dime, the happy-go-lucky girl.
The guy is a sweet tongue – and obviously a player. He’s a nice friend but not a boyfriend material. He loves to flirt around – obvious or not. Two weeks after flirting with her – she found out he’s flirting with Barbie, a popular girl in the forum. Knowing this and seeing that – stubs her heart deeply up to her soul. Unpredictably, she cried. She never cried for a guy before. It hasn’t to be – cos she should not. The guy has the freedom to flirt around cos they’re merely friends.
Books freed her. Books shoulder her pain. Books hear her cries. Books feel her agony. Books show her a new life. She never really like books though – and hates reading. But books revived her and teach her to smile once more.
Now, she’s back on the track again – a bit unhappy but again willed. She caught her old self again and now ready to face a challenge – finding her own personal legend.
She took off the “STOP IT” sign attached to her monitor and smiled as she read the new one “Welcome back, Dime!”.
Labels: anguish, hurt, love, pain, short story
posted by Yesha Gee
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