I don’t know exactly why my heart was so hurt today; the feeling that you’d like to cry but can’t find a reason to defend why you have to. I think I’m so lonely and I can feel that my heart has been torn really really bad. I wish I could cry, but my mind is always reminding – i should not always listen to my heart. The heart is never right, it simply confuses the senses. Sometimes, the mind can not comprehend the feelings that the heart is aching. Most of the time, the mind is the worst enemy of the heart.

I know I became so mushy today. I am confused too. Do you think I like the way I’m acting?

I can really feel the pain – it’s as if my heart is about to explode. My eyes could no longer hold the tears that I should have released long ago. My heart screams for cure. But what can I do? It is not meant to be. I have no reason to cry, and definitely have no reason to get hurt. Is there a way we hide the cry of thy heart? The most explicit question is – can we?

My eyes aren’t crying, but my heart was swamped with its own tears. I wish someday, my heart will restore itself. I know time will heal the pain. I just hope God will grant me wisdom so I can finally have reason to decide and move on.