“But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of my mine head.” Psalms 3:3
I can’t imagine myself without my Lord Jesus Christ. I have been through a lot, tremendously, that if not of Him, i’m not even sure if i have and had the strength to lift my head. I was shameful. Prodigal.
My life was never the sweet thing. I lived in sin, i lived liberally. No one judged me for being liberated but at the end of the day, it's me who's destroying myself. It's me who's making myself shameful.
It is God’s plan to bring me here in UAE, to leave the worldly lavishness in Philippines, that is. And here in the most strangest part of the world, a family has brought up me again. I got closer to God. I am more than blessed, favored exceedingly that i could thank God all my life. God gave me a new life to begin with. He had taken all my shames away and made me able to lift my head again. I was in the pitched darkness, and He sparked a light that helped me made through.
Life in Dubai was never easy. It was difficult enough for very sensitive lady, a woman with a true fragile heart. God knew i couldn’t do anything by myself, so He made arrangements for me before i could even ask for it. He is the One who gave me this abundant life. He is the only reason why i am still able to smile despite the hardship. I am blessed, yes, i am so blessed. He made me all new.
But the prodigal daughter in my blood creeps in at times. And yes, many times i failed God. I did things, i decided, i acted on my own accord. I repeat history. I swam in misery. I fell in the pit once again.
But my God, my Father in heaven, truly loves me. He is always there for me, lifting me up and cheering me up. It is like my Father was there waiting for me to come back. And i thank Him that He never abandoned me despite my shortcomings. He shields me before something terrible might happen. The bests are prepared at my table before i could even ask. He has done everything so i may be able to lift my head and smile again.