 I am chasing a lost love. He begged for my love not too long ago, and I thought I could forget about him cos I was sure I can. How funny things turned into, cos I’ve been missing him a lot and twist of fate, he’s not into me anymore.
Who’s to blame why we ended up like this? If I am too desperate enough, I would think, I put the blame on me. But then again, people do change and I never thought he will change abruptly. I’m not begging for him to come back yet I admit, I missed his presence so much. I’ve been showing him that I’m missing him and it pains me cos he’s letting it down the drain. I don’t feel his compassion anymore. I can’t see any trace of love and kindness anymore. I am not going to give up cos I will wait for the time when my heart gets tired of it. What goes around comes around, the forces of nature. Do I deserve this? Maybe, it’s fate. I know he’s not going to love me the way he loved me before. He vividly shown me how rigid he was to let me know he can live without me now. He saw how fragile I was, yet he kept on breaking my heart. For now, I’m all okay; I still have the courage to heal my own heart. The heart gets tired too and I’m just waiting for it to say she has had enough then I’ll go.
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I am chasing a lost love. He begged for my love not too long ago, and I thought I could forget about him cos I was sure I can. How funny things turned into, cos I’ve been missing him a lot and twist of fate, he’s not into me anymore.
posted by Yesha Gee
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u'r sure this is Bi we are talking here? doesn't sound like the man i know... nwei, maybe all u need is space and time to think about how ur relationship is going lately, set ur priorities, list down the things u want to continue and those things u have to let go. and while doing all these, reinvent urself, play the field (by field, i mean a lot- not just the relationship field). i'm sure one day u'll find that life is more than what u have right now... i suggest u take on the carpe diem philosophy. and next time, always remember that u have friends to call on, turn to, shout at when the world crumbles, tc.