I am chasing a lost love. He begged for my love not too long ago, and I thought I could forget about him cos I was sure I can. How funny things turned into, cos I’ve been missing him a lot and twist of fate, he’s not into me anymore. Who’s to blame why we ended up like this? If I am too desperate enough, I would think, I put the blame on me. But then again, people do change and I never thought he will change abruptly. I’m not begging for him to come back yet I admit, I missed his presence so much. I’ve been showing him that I’m missing him and it pains me cos he’s letting it down the drain. I don’t feel his compassion anymore. I can’t see any trace of love and kindness anymore. I am not going to give up cos I will wait for the time when my heart gets tired of it. What goes around comes around, the forces of nature. Do I deserve this? Maybe, it’s fate. I know he’s not going to love me the way he loved me before. He vividly shown me how rigid he was to let me know he can live without me now. He saw how fragile I was, yet he kept on breaking my heart. For now, I’m all okay; I still have the courage to heal my own heart. The heart gets tired too and I’m just waiting for it to say she has had enough then I’ll go.
Labels: chasing love, feelings, lost. love, pain