My life is as simple as ABC but I always complicate it with the squared of XYZ. I couldn’t even tell what is missing cos I have no idea – if there is to expect. I’ve been manipulating these ABC’s with XYZ’s – in finding what is there ahead of me. I know that the constant C has the value of 3 – Yes, the number 3. My life went aboard, seafaring and sailing to gather anything I could bear and I could get. I know the Alphabet have numbers assigned to it, A for 1, B for 2, constant C for 3 and so on until it hits the ending of Z for 26.

The equation of my life was simple as I knew it to be. I’d always thought it was just A + B + C; unfortunately, not just the XYZ set hurdles but rather the squared of them. See how silly of me?

Experience is equal to the value of Z minus the sum of A, B and C. I know, I know, my experience should be bigger than anything I could calculate but Experience is just a portion of what I am looking – a fulfillment I can’t even tell. Should I snorkeling or even diving – to explore the sea of confusion and shadow?

I’ve been dealing about Love my whole life cos I am longing to be loved more than I could love someone. I long for someone who’ll show me love – caress me, hug me, and kiss me. But Love is just the difference of Y and X, added to the square of B. I am not desperate cos I am not really searching. Love can wait; afterall, I’m not ready. I’m still young. All I wanted is to be loved by anyone – anybody special to me.

I have Hope as I always been. I wouldn’t have dream and aim if I did not have that. To fulfill or to fail is something I can’t predict but as long as the hope is there – I have nothing to worry about, really! Hope is the summation of the squares of A, B and C, sum multiplied by B, added to the sum of X, Y, and Z, deducted by the always constant C of me.

If you add my Experience, Love and Hope – you will get my Life. My life is easy yet it’s thorny. How would I know if what I am doing right now is the ‘what’ I’ve been dreaming about? Can I think about my own being? Was my life enough?

My Being is the sum of the squared of my Experience, the squared of my Love and the square-root of my Hope. I thought my Being is my tool to discover and to unravel what is there for me. I always contemplate it that way. But am I sure about it? Am I looking straight or I am just blinding myself?

It’s easy to say Being is ‘it is’. But I have to multiply the Being with the constant C to find the ‘Self’ – and I can’t define self. I’ve been to a forum that debates about it but I only read words from the mouths and terms for the mind. Did they even dig deeper to their soul to understand? Or I still have to multiply the ‘Self’ by the constant C to see.

Multiplying the Self by the C helps me to pause and think. No need, but groupings will do. Yes! grouping shows. I group the value of ‘Self’ into two (group not divide) and I was amazed to learn that I’ve been missing a lot of my life. I am looking, searching, pointing, and even probing just to know what is it there. I took the important thing for granted. How funny it is to look so far – where I can always ask those 2 groups of the ‘Self’ to tell what it is there to check.

Have you ever read between the lines? Did you dig what I try to convey? Or maybe your mind is too narrow and you quickly gave up to simply miss it? Life is like a Math – it has calculations whether you’ll take it simple or not.

So, what were those 2 groups that come from the calculated Self? ASK the Alphabet and write it capitalized. Oh yeah, I advice you get a paper, a pen, and a calculator – you need it for the calculations.

God Bless Us!

~ phew

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posted by Yesha Gee at Friday, April 13, 2007-