Needles. Syringe. Injection. Anesthesia. Cutter. Blood. Surgery. Operation. Scar. These are the few things that I really fear – and these were the things I’ve been conquering 2 days ago. Lymphoma – the doctor says – is what they’ve found on my nape. As I search for info on the internet – definitions and explanations were just alarming me. I still have to biopsy the ‘specimen’ they took off me. One thing for sure – I don’t have a cancer. Gosh! The big C will definitely not going to hit me. I’m fine and I’m well.

One thing I might regret about the operation – would be the scar it will leave behind. My friend says, it measures like a pinkie. I am prone to keloid so the scar on my nape really frustrates me. But then again, I should be thankful cos the doctors were able to prevent my condition to get worse.

I thank the doctors for the dedications – for making the operation successful. I thank my mom for the care – she’s the number one in the whole world and I love her so much. I also thank my siblings for texting me every now and then – giving words of encouragement and for praying. I’d like to extend my heartfelt gratitude to all of my friends – who were there, who sends me ‘get well soon’ messages, and those who prays for me.

God knows how scared I was that day – my mom was late and siblings can’t make it to pay me a visit. But then, I am so happy cos special people were there to support me.

I’ll treat myself another of whole-day rest. Hope to see everyone again in 2 days time. I love you all!

Labels: belongingness, cancer, Fear, lymphoma, operation, plastic surgery, struggle

posted by Yesha Gee at Monday, March 05, 2007- 10comments